Violet Hill

I took my love down to Violet Hill

There we sat in the snow

All that time she was silent still

If you love me, won"t you let me know?

I lost my Sylvia Plath book, damn public transport.

And, dear Mags thanks for never giving up on me as a friend,

means more than i can say, I know you won't read this but...anyway

At this rate

"And by the way, everything is writable as long as you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt."

Yesssss

Pull

"We are all going to die, all of us, what a circus!

That alone should make us love each other but it doesn't.

We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities,

we are eaten up by nothing."

Time keeps passing me by and i am getting increasingly fatigued

I hate how my self worth is solely determined by my academic excellence (or lack thereof) in this day and age, I mean it when I say I wouldn't study if I had a choice. Not out of laziness because I believe knowledge can be acquired in a myriad of ways. I have been feeling incessantly resentful toward education of late

..........

Want

"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited."

The gamut of life

"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

Gotta get to kinokuniya or borders to find books by him (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Tomorrow. :)